“Ok! Your surgery is scheduled for October. This cancer is slow growing, so there is no need to worry about waiting a couple of months,” says the surgeon. This sounds reasonable; so, I head back to my schedule. What bothers me is that this pending prostatectomy keeps showing up on my schedule. It steals my time, and distracts my concentration with thoughts like, “I’ve never been incontinent” and “Impotence never withered my mind”. Sitting up at 2AM thinking about the future makes nights dark and long, and that’s what I’m doing now as I discover choices to surgical removal of my prostate gland.